What to do.

Yeah I got confirmation of my Job in Florida and a probable raise. Houses there are inexpensive compared to here. I'm talking what you would pay here is half price there. Only one person at my work currently knows I'm leaving and that is because she is the one going to be hiring me in Florida... I'm looking at a month and a half to 2 months left here in va before I start really moving... I'm going to be working for CSC supporting sacred heart hospital. So fucking sweet. I'm going to be going from Tier 3 desktop tech to something more of a Desktop Team lead. I'll be right under the desktop manager. So awesome. I am the professional favor hire. Sweet. I'm going to try and set it up so that a bunch of people can come down for a week or weekend I'll try to plan it out months in advance so you guys can come vacation together at my house down there. From what I've seen i'll only be living about 10 mins away from the beach at most... So awesome.

I think someone at panera yesterday tainted our food. I and SooMee have both been dizy and head heavy since about 2 yesterday... it has only been getting worse for me. I don't have a headache I just feel drunk without the emotional or the happy giddy... My mind is clear but my balance and coordination are super fucked up.

I hope we wern't drugged.

I'm trying not to get my hopes up but I and SooMee are going to move to the wonderful sunny state of Florida. We are looking at sometime in the next six months. I haven't got confirmation and it is probably too early to start announcing this but Florida here I come (hopefully).

So for anybody that didn't know which I think maybe a few of you-s...I'm getting married this friday Febuary 16, 2007.

To my great girl - SooMee Lee.

Peace.

My mistake using a phrase and not know what it meant. but while i was looking for the true meaning I found something nice. - the phrase by the way "I will alwasy come home to you" -means you are out with an "other" and cheating. - I didn't know that it held that meaning, I used it in a - "I won't be going home to anyone else I will be coming home from my daily activities to you." as in " I leave the house each day(for work and honest activities) and return home to you each night - not someone else."

I'm foolish...so look up something before you say them...not that I planned on saying this before the conversation arose.

Following Quotes from here About half way down the page.

A good relationship is two people that are not afraid to tell the other anything that may come up in the relationship. Best friends. Honesty, devotion, love, and sense of humor. -kris

A good relationship exists when either individual has the freedom to leave but neither wants to. -Charles

I honestly think that a good relationship is one where there are no secrets. You are completely open with each other. But the biggest key is that the other person knows the worst possible thing about you and they love you even more for it. On top of that you have to have faith and trust. So that when your man goes out with an old female friend you can completely trust him and know that no matter what happens(ed. doesn't necessarily have to be bad), he will always come home to you. I know it may not seem like much but as long as you have that and love, you are in a wonderful relationship. :) -Breanna

I define a good relationship by the way you treat each other. You could hold them and run your fingers down the side of their face. Feel comfortable you know. And you can also define it with fighting. Fighting is not my favorite thing to do with my girlfriend. But it needs to be done. It's not a real relationship until you do fight. -Jasen

I would have to say good communication! Equality, LOVE, not just lust, and most of all, friendship is needed. -Morning Star

For me, a good relationship is being able to open up to each other even about the simple things in life. A relationship between two people cannot grow without trust. Loving a person is not enough, because if you've got doubts building up inside then you your relationship won't work. A good relationship is also based on friendship because it is so much easier to love someone you truly know than someone you've met 5 minutes ago. -Toni

I think it is where you can trust and respect each other; when you can have passion and romance whenever and wherever you wish. -Kevin

A good relationship is when the two of you can actually feel better about your relationship after an argument; it's when you can really respect each other's differences and openly discuss feelings at all times. -Angie

I couldn't ever cheat on a girl I would feel like such shit...

God I want to start my new Job.
God I want to be at home with SooMee (she's not there she's at work)
God I want to Play on my 360....Rainbow Six Vegas...Gears of War....good times.

I'm so happy i grew the facial hair.... IT LOOKS GREAT ON my character in Rainbow Six Vegas - If you didn't know you can take pictures of your face and creat your own custom head in the game.

I have too many 360 games...

Launch Titles

Project Gotham Racing 3 (♦♦♦◊◊) - Great game no car customization or car damage. - lots of cars online and singleplayer are linked in money and cars.
Perfect Dark Zero (♦◊◊◊◊) - Game wasn't ready for release massively glitchy - online and offline blew horribly
Quake 4 (♦◊◊◊◊) - Not worthy of Console. No Special effects but holds the traditional gameplay -probably great on pc
Call of Duty 2 (♦♦♦♦◊) - Great multiplayer on and offline. small maps good weapon selection

Since then
Dead or Alive 4 . - owned for a weekend literally I hated it so much. I hate fighting games no matter how good they look.
Ghost Recon Advanced War Fighter (♦♦♦♦◊) - Great online and offline multiplayer great weapons but the multiplayer was too different from single player (ie. no ducking against cover in online.)
Fight Night Round 3 (♦♦◊◊◊) - Best sports title I've played. Got repetitive and annoying because my friends could pick it up and beat me first try. minigames for gaining stats.
Oblivion (♦♦♦♦♦) - Greatest offline only Game I think I've played - so much to do. Another company is coming out with one that is SCIFI and in space on a large space ship you can fly to different worlds and walk around those worlds and your ship while it's flying with better relationship building...but seems like you only can play as human male or female. Multiple endings. whoo. Mass Effect
Zero G Fighters (♦♦◊◊◊) - Comic style drawn characters for between missions 10 recorded lines that were reused over and over. Fun flying though
MotoGP 06 (♦♦♦◊◊) - only tried playing 2x I suck so much. Graphics and realism is good.
BattleField 2 (really didn't play it more than a week) - had some neat elements but fell by the wayside nothing too impressive to make me want to keep playing.
X-Men 3 Offical Game (♦◊◊◊◊) - I could have made those cinematics with cardboard cutouts... really all the cut-scenes were supposed to look like comics but when the movie was coming out soon I was hoping for a sneak peek.

Holidays 2006
Burger King Pocket Racing (not even going to rate this) - fun novelty game
Call of Duty 3 (♦♦◊◊◊) - same single player as COD2 but the multiplayer was expanded too much large maps and crappier graphics in Multiplayer.
Gears of War (collectors) (♦♦♦♦♦) - Great Strategy and speed. Chainsaw bayonett (need I say more...well i will anyways) blood, brains, curb stomping, shottys and snipers.
Rainbow Six Vegas (♦♦♦♦◊) - Fun tactical, online Identity ranking is good single player is good ... multiplayer ranked matches leaves something to be desired. unranked pits noobs like me against veterans. Although I'm not a noob to the franchise but I play like one. Aimming glitches are annoying..

My only games with a full rating are - Oblivion and Gears of War

Changes of Recent
Started taking closer looks at my Roth IRA stocks...
1. Bought some stock in a company that hasn't been around for more than a month...5 shares at about $30 Company called Spirit AeroSystems just a guess. don't know how they will do never heard of them before this week.

2. Been thinking of moving out a lot recently looking for a house or town house to buy ... thinking about getting a mortgage.

3. Got a new job don't know when it is starting hopefully before christmas and I already Know I'm going to be making $45,000 - with $7,500 available for school re-imbursment. -Health and Vision options and Retirement options. I will be a Senior Level Technician working for CSC under General Dynamics Land Systems in Woodbridge. So I will be staying in PWC for a lot longer... finishing school getting a good bit paid for by CSC. oh and every other Friday off and did I mention about 10-15 mins from home currently...get off at 5:30 everyday. super sweet.

4. Working on beating RainbowSix Vegas right now...I'm near the end of Dante's Casino level.

5. Super psyched right now about all the changes...

6. I'll let you know when I move into my new place... I'll start realistically looking on Monday...House Warming Party a must...

7. Holy Shit I turn 21 in less than a month...WTF!!!

8. SooMee and are doing great...Couldn't be happier...This girl rocks...I love her and miss her right now because I'm at work and like 80 miles away. We have our little bouts everyonce in a while but it's all good in the end. (by the way the last post wasn't because I was torn up because of her leaving me it was because she has been at my house everyday for the last 2 months I think and I had to ask her to stay away some because my parents started acting grumpy and I think we may have been the reason why...it was the hardest thing for me to ask because it felt like I severed half of my body when she left.)

SOOSOSo HAPPY!!!
I hate the job I have currently I can't wait to find out my start date so I can quit this job for the GS(Fucking)A.

All is well...

Have you ever felt like someone ripped your chest in half and showed you the gapin hole where your heart should be?

It sucks. and depressed ontop of that.

Check out my latest background ... paid for by the GSA...

Check it out here it is effing huge so I'm linking to it.

So I posted about being happy and that just jinxed me.

Today this morning.
Shit sucks SooMee just broke up with me. It's complictated.

Changing jobs Again hopefully.
Got an email from my old boss. he wants me back...He will be calling me and talking about possibilities for me going back to woodbridge. Sweet. Except it doesn't really seem like I can be happy about anything because SooMee dumped me and is gettin all of her stuff from my house tonight.

I couldn't be anymore upset. I thought I was upset before.
Damn.
Emotions suck.
Fuck Emotions
Who needs them.
Fuck
good night.
fuck work.
I'm getting my old job back anyways.

So I needed to post a happy post and I will probably start posting more since I spend all 40 hours of each working week in front of a computer and of those 40 hours I spend maybe 15 doing actual work. It sucks the times I'm happiest at work are those when i'm working so yeah i'm bored alot.


SooMee rocks...She just does...I'm so happy spending time with her and having her around. I couldn't imagine being happy with anyother person. When I'm in the mood for playing xbox she will lay by me and watch but she usally plays with me! It's awesome. She appreciates my nerdiness and likes it. I Love her. God...and my parents are being kinda cool about the whole thing. They have been home for like a month now which is a long time...and every night I get to have SooMee over she spends the night every night or I will spend the night with her. My parents haven't been asking too many questions (we have to sleep in different rooms on different floors but hey it's better than nothing. In the morning I wake up early so I can go crawl in bed with her before my shower and I lay with her at night till I'm tired then wander upstairs but it rocks. I am so happy with her... I can't wait to see her and it's only been like 4 hours.

I know all you depressed kids with your livejournals are now mad because there is a happy poster...well screw you.

I really thought I knew SooMee by now...I'm wrong.
Maybe we shouldn't be allowed to see each other except during sunny days since it seems every once in a while when we are tired we get at each others throats. It sucks...I really Love SooMee. I said it. But well like last night...She's here...We are laying down talking then it starts getting time for Her to leave for work. So I let her know and as it gets later and later over the course of 15mins I get a little pushier since she skipped out on work the night before...Fifteen mins go by and then I'm trying to physically move her so she gets up...She then remarks something along the lines of "Well if you don't want to see me and you just want me to leave just say so, I'm going home."
I remind her she has to work. She doesn't care I help get her stuff since she's cutting it close so she grabs it storms out...I follow ask if she will even say goodbye or anything, "can I get a hug?" I ask while forcing one on her I get a arm in my chest telling me NO. So I let go shout "You confuse me. I don't understand you!"
and I storm off back to the house.

Later that night about 30mins later I'm in bed get a text...I start responding send it as I get a call. The call is cut off...So I call her. Leave a voicemail. She responds to my text while I'm leaving VM with an "Eh." A little later I hear she quit her night job. So I'm confused I Called her today and she is colder than Ice...when I'm talking to her she doesn't listen to what I say, she may have heard it but she doesn't believe anything I say I think. She thinks I put a double meaning to everything, Like I can't have a single Intent for a sentence like I have a hidden agenda. When Earlier I was trying to tell her something out right honest that was kinda hard because I didn't want her to think badly upon things.

I just don't know. I always think I'm doing the right thing and I still think I did but apparently I can't push her to go to work. Although I feel guilty when she stays with me instead of going to work.
I just don't know.
Put a hat on me and call me a jester

While everything is mostly good I'm going to update:

1. SooMee and I are doing Great couldn't be happier...She is awesome and brightens my day.
2. on the work front I was supposed to be unemployed right now but Got extended another 30 days...(thank JV my Line of Service manager who tried to fire me).

Trying to get a job in Iraq doing computer Stuff ... great oppertunity great pay... $120k starting.
Have 2 headhunters looking for work for me.

3. Mom is back in town again. NO mess NO problem.
4. Friends heading back to school....
5. So I thought School started this week...definitly started last week... My Bio Teacher sounded like ben stien and said okay after every single statment and so I dropped after first class...I'm taking all online classes...3 of them 2 are cake and the third is Physics - should be pretty easy too I aced Physics in HS.

OH yeah and I got that Reckless driving ticket over my head talked to a lawyer says I wasn't doing anything wrong will get everything to go away for a small one time fee of $900 = me broke.

So all in all things aren't too bad...little broke but not bad...

OH got a sweet new bike this week My wallet equals -$630 ( i'm supposed to be the first of 15 people on the East coast to get this bike...only 15 are making it to the east coast ...I'm special...)

Untill next time
I'm out.

Damn it I can't fucking believe it .... I got a ticket for squeling my tires in Central Park Last night...
A effing reckless too. I can't stand it. But the ticket is wierd rather than being a traffic offense it's being considered a criminal offense and the Piggy that wrote me out the ticket got my license Plate Number wrong...it is JWU-5132 they put down JWU-5126 that is no typo that is a dumbass cop not able to fill out paperwork properly I'm going to talk to my lawyer and see if he can help me and see if he can use that to our advantage.

So I ended up getting these three spics arrested today for vandalism... or I think that's why...I was working on my bike outside my garage and when they were walking by my house they went to the church's mailbox across the street from my house and opened it and pulled all the mail out on to the ground into the street and then one of the kids i thought opened some of the mail and I called the cops...

now a side point Dumfries is only a mile long and it's not wide it's basically a thourogh fare nothing far from rt 1 and it took the pigs 10 mins to get to my house.

So it ended up that three cops came and 2 left 20 mins later with one kid each then another 10 mins later the last cop left with the last kid...

I was talking to a state cop in my neighborhood and he told me he has tipped the dumfries pigs off before about these kids and then told me he thinks that they are M.S 13 because there is a M.S 13 tag down the street from my house and he thinks they did it...

For all of you that don't know MS13 is a very large Latin American Gang...They are very large in the DC area and growing...My brother was tipped off that in his nieghborhood in woodbridge MS 13 has been buying up the houses and making them safehouses for thier wanted criminials...
I'm kinda paranoid now about the mexicans I see in my hood...which i guess now is a bario (mexican for neighborhood). Especially this SilverTanish early 90's Honda Accord va plates
KAS-??15 it drove by my house and then looped at the 4 way stop then came back and went ultra slow in front of my house then drove off came back a min later... and pulled in front of a house down around the corner...I rode around my block and saw him sitting in his car but he didn't live there because i know the people that live there are white. I didn't see him leave I hung outside for like 20 mins more then went inside...I'm not going to be fucking intimidated by the fucking illeagals in my own nieghborhood...

but I do think I am going to borrow a shotty from my Brother until I can escalate my own arms...damn Spicks...bring those gats.
Remember Pistol Grip Pump In my Lap at all times...
Mess with other Niggas shit
but you ain't be messin with mine.

Tuesday My Boss who has only met me once who works in Sterling Hts Michigan...
IM'd me and told me My contract was getting extended again
he asked what I thought about it and I told him...
That I was tired of being strung along and that I wasn't being paid enough for the work I was doing I was hired to do a monkeys job and getting paid to do it and now I'm doing technical work for the last 3 months and still getting paid the same. I told him I wanted more money and I wanted to know if when he was going to hire in October how much I was going to get paid because I didn't want to get strung along at a crappy rate thinking I'm going to get better and then get dicked over and get not near what I wanted ... He asked how much I wanted I told him 20-25 he told me he didn't think I could get that from CSC...I told him I could get at least 20 elsewhere ... and that I've already proved I'm worth it. He told me he would get back with me later this week.

I got a call from my local manager when I was at a user's desk doing work and went to the meeting with him and my Sterling hts boss on conference. Basically my sterling boss Joe Verbic told me that he couldn't give me what I wanted and that he didn't want me working for him at a rate I wasn't happy with and didn't want me to be disgruntled with CSC...So he wasn't going to hire me in October...and then he told me he wasn't going to extend my contract till October. So basically I'm out of a job with CSC on Aug 31...meaning no more CrackBerry phone, every other Friday off, Local Job, The cool people I've known for the last long time and getting to work with my Brother (and having his support)...


AAAGGGHHH

This sucks...I'm going to get a job with more money but I'm going to have to be a Bitch again and take everyone elses crap...

At CSC We have a help ticket system where we close peoples tickets that they open when they have a problem...I closed the most tickets of everyone at my site last month the closet person to me was 40 tickets away. In June I was 3rd most tickets closed. This month I am also top closed tickets....What the fuck...They are so retarded...They are going to suffer so much when I'm gone...and they were planing on sending me to another site where I was going to be the only desktop tech because the other person up for that position refused to go and was threatening to quit. Now I hope they do send her so that she will quit and they will then be royally fucked...Bastards...I laugh at thier stupidity...

(but i'm crying inside)

I called her last night and she answered...I was surprised.
She sounded cold like i was nobody...then she let me go. she got the last word in. she folder her phone.

She called me back though and I don't remember what she said or what I said. So I can't remember if she was cold to me or not...In my dream I imagined that she wasn't (and I was happy).

So I don't know what happened...Everything was great....

I didn't mean to cause trouble but I did.
I haven't been happier than in the last nearly 2 months.
I don't want this to go away but I think I fucked this up.
God damnit...
I had this post all planned out in my head of what I wanted to say...
now nothing.

So i remember when i was 10 and my oldest brother was 20 something and he had a girl over and they slept together ( can't remember if it was in his room or on the fold out couch) they didn't have sex but they just slept together. My parents got home this week and I brought SooMee over and we watched a movie and went to bed at 1.30ish am to my room. I was kinda worried that my parents were going to throw a fit. So I went to work and came home my Dad yelled at me cause he couldn't find the remote and apperently i sent and recieved a total of 560 text messages in the last month at $.10 a piece = $50 and change...sucks...my parents weren't even angry about it...they even said it was thier fault and are paying the bill...I so don't understand.

Wow it's like things can't go wrong right now.